End of the journey

 It's with much sadness that I share that my pregnancy journey has ended. I confirmed today that we lost our baby. We will be OK, but right now, our hearts are heavy. I knew it was risky and that this was a very real possibility, but it doesn't make it any easier. While I don't believe that God did this, I still believe that He can use what the devil meant for evil and destruction and turn it around as a means to help somebody else. There's a song played on the local Christian radio station about how nothing that happens in your life is wasted. I forget the name of it, but that speaks to me. Do I believe it was God's will for me to lose this baby? No. I know that flies in the face of much mainline theology, but I don't see that being consistent with Scripture under the New Covenant. Jesus clearly said in John that satan is the one who steals, kills, and destroys, but that He has come to give LIFE and in abundance. But we live in a fallen world, and bad things sometimes happen. It's not God's fault. He made the world perfect. Humanity and the forces of evil have marred it. But still there is MUCH good, and we have MANY blessings, none of which we really deserve, and so I'm thankful. Thankful for this loss? No. But thankful IN this circumstance because my Lord and Savior will bring Jim and me through this. We will heal. We will go on. We will keep fighting the battles in the spirit that every follower of Jesus Christ must face in one form or another, And we WILL win. Not because of our great spirituality but because of the mighty, powerful, and awesome God we serve! Yes. for today, we are grieving. We've shed tears and will probably cry some more, but that doesn't change the fact that our heavenly Father has made us more than conquerers and  given us the strength, comfort, and victory we need to press on for His glory!

May you experience His abiding love in a way that heals any hurts in your heart!

Annette