I feel like my world has become topsy turvy. Right now there's no schedule or routines for anything, and stuff is just getting done hit or miss. Not that I was ever particularly organized to begin with, but at least a few things were under control. The changes that are starting to happen even now, along with the ones that will be coming up over the next several days, weeks, months all need to be considered, yet so much remains unknown. We have 6 people moving in today. And honestly, we are glad to be able to offer them shelter, but this will be such a big adjustment. I'm embarrassed about my messy, dirty house. Jim has been so great to do a lot of cleaning up, but there are still many areas that are dirty and disorderly, and the lady moving in with her family is a clean freak. I'm concerned she'll have a meltdown when she walks in the door. Well, what am I gonna do? It is what it is at the moment, and I guess she will either have to adjust or go set up her tent in the backyard. Or start cleaning stuff herself. Though I don't want her to have to do that. Cuz to get my house, let alone my life and those of my kids, in order is not gonna be something we can tackle in a day. This is going to probably involve multiple hours/days of work.
Not really much baby stuff to do at this point. Had some spotting again. It seems like every other morning it comes, then it's fine for a while. It lightens up throughout the day and the next. It's been about the same for 5 days, not going away, but not getting worse either. No cramping, but the um, personal area, feels a little irritated. Nothing horrible. Almost reminds me of yeast infection, but not itchy, and it doesn't have the other yeast type symptoms. So I don't know what's going on. I haven't really had anything quite like it before. From what I've read about miscarriages, this doesn't seem typical. I do realize it's still possible, but I'm not going down that road in my thinking. Statistics regarding pregnancy outcomes don't mean that much to me cuz they fail to factor in the power of God. Besides, according to statistics, your chance of becoming pregnant over 45 on your own is less than 1%. And well...... here I am.
Today I have a hair appointment, which also means I will get some exercise in cuz I have to walk there. Not really looking forward to the walk in this heat and humidity, but you do what you haveta do. And getting my hair done and eyebrows/chin waxed always is such a pick me up. I'm not a particularly pretty woman (I mean I'm not hideously scary ugly either) but about average I guess except for being quite overweight, but when my hair looks good and I've had a wax, I look SOOOOO much better, and that helps me feel better. I also am really wanting to get my nails done and a pedicure, but sadly, that will have to wait til we have more cash flow. Our car is acting up AGAIN. Well, it IS older than dirt. We keep pouring money into this thing, which we hate to do, but despite the expense of repairs, it's still cheaper than buying another vehicle. So today, Jim will drop it off at the mechanic's, and we will get to fork over another couple hundred bucks, give or take. GRRRRRRRRRR! We need that $ for other things.
Even though the disordered state of my life right now has left me wondering where to start on the path to getting some semblance of control, I decided food/meals would be a good beginning. The past week, our eating has been hit or miss and not particularly nutritionally sound, which tends to happen when you aren't planning regular meals, and just eating whatever whenever. So I figured this should be the first thing to change. We have to eat anyway, so why not take the stress out of it by planning a week's worth of meals. That way too I know I won't skip meals or binge on junk. Yes, guilty of doing both of those last week. Wasn't really a good girl in the food department, but I know that needs to change, esp now that I'm pregnant. I can't be packing on pounds like a linebacker here, but neither can I go all day without eating just cuz I may not feel hungry. Maybe by eating in a more regular pattern, I will have more energy and fewer headaches, and get rid of the constipation, and I know it's healthier for me and my little mini bambino. So last night I planned out a week's worth of breakfast. lunch, and dinners, made a grocery list, and did a big food shopping. I was REALLY tired after that! But now I have the food I need in the house to make and eat relatively healthy meals. So today I had breakfast. Granola with some blueberries in 1% milk. I'm satisfied but not stuffed, which is good. I also decided to start taking my meds right after I eat breakfast, like I used to, instead of waiting til later in the day, and see if that helps with the heartburn and one sided sinus type headaches. I'm also going to try to drink more water, and I've eliminated most caffeine. Tonight for dinner, I'm planning to make a penne pasta with ground beef bake, homemade bread, and a salad.
On Wed, a friend who does organizing professionally, is coming over to help me. She's giving us an AWESOME deal! I don't think one session is going to get everything in order, but it will be a start, and when we can afford to do more, I'm hoping to be able to use her services again.
But in the meantime, I'm going online to look for ideas about what to do next, now that I have the food thing pretty much taken care of. If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know. It could be for ANY area of life: spiritual, health, beauty, mental/emotional well being, fun, marriage, parenting, cleaning, organizing, homeschooling, time management, decorating, homemaking, personal growth/development, friendships/relationships, ministering/serving others. Those are all areas of importance to me. Would love to hear about any recommendations/resources.
Happy Monday!
Annette
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